Finally quit Maple...

[HealerCody]

Long story. I've been wanting to for months, now. And I haven't been, as well.



I don't want to quit, but I need to.


I got someone to change my PIN, so I cannot relapse and log back in.


I'm dealing with a lot of depression in my life. Gonna be on anti-depressants ASAP, I hope. Every time I have an appointment to get them, somethign comes up and I'm out of town...


My boyfriend broke up with me. . . I love him more than he loves me. Oh well, I'm used to those feelings... Though "we can pick it back up later."
We just need to focus on ourselves, for now. I guess. Wtf. =/ I gotta work on school, though.


Back in night school again. Hopefully this time I won't be kicked out for not being able to attend.

Turns out my night school teacher also suffers from depression and takes an anti-depressant. He's gonna let me work on day school-work in there and not do any night school stuff. He's good at math, so I got a tutor there...

I'm thinking of suicide more and more, now, it's funny.

I'm going to scare my.... ex(shudders)boyfriend away, because I'm being emo about the break up and talking about love and it being lost and everything on bulletins on myspace.

-sigh-

Yeah, well. More than one announcement, I guess.



I let Pirates down. I can't lead the Pirates in Mardia... I need to work on school, I have a very, very slim chance of passing and I gotta try to make it. . . Yeah. . .


So, I got charged 20K NX the same night we broke up, and I got my PIN changed right after that. So, all the stuff I spent NX on I won't be able to use. . . It's terrible, I was waiting forEVER for the NX and now I can't enjoy it. . . Oh. . .well. . .



Hopefully I can overcome my addiction like some of my friends have, and are really happy it's gone. . .

Everyone's happy I quit, when I talk to them, and only a few are sad. . . it's for the best, I guess... yes. I'm certain.


It'll be tough. . . . .



iCody, leader of Pirates in Mardia.... Retired.
HealerCody, old Pirates member in Windia.... Retired.

I'm sorry, Pirates. I let everyone online and offline down.

[xCrazyinLove™]

Oh gawd Cody, you can't quit now.
I just finally found you again!
I'm sure you remember me from Luis.
wAnnaXDlBa0I?
Well, I'm very sorry to hear that' you're quitting.
I didn't get a chance to know you more.

And you're not letting anyone down Cody.
Please get well soon.
I'm sure we're all going to miss you dearly.
I know you'll pull through.
And when you do, come visit us?
Or at least keep in contact with us.
Love of love. <3

[Mazz™]

D: Cody!
im sorry to hear this but dont for a second think you have let us down, its okay
dont think about suicide, forget it totally you can/will get better; focus on school and try to think about the 'bright side'
eventually you will forget about maple, if it helps then take a break from visiting the forums too...
but once you're better come back and say hi, im sure we will all want to hear from you
i know you'll get better, just focus on that.

[Pirate Jing]

Cody told me the other day. Bummber. :[

[Roy]

I hope you find peace in the real world. And maybe we shall see you again sometime.

[iJeffi™]

Cody, why do you have to Part from us? =(

[xojessicerr]

CODYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. ;______________________________________;
DDD:
*hugglesss*
I'm gonna miss youuuuuuuuu. D: <33

[BloodyWill]

high 5 dude.

[slexenn]

Oh man, im so sorry!

Ugh..... im just sorry i ident get to know you a bit better.....

[highcaliber]

Cody =X

Hey man, Try harder to see that you're leaving Maplestory, but I to can relate to your situation. It took me getting a girlfriend to make me stop playing maple. But now she's gotten a job and I have free time, so I get on and mess around for awhile every few days.

Like mazz said, you havent let any of us down. That'll never be the case. You were a great friend/guildmember and that's more than we can say about some people.

I hope you keep up with the forums but I can understand if you dont. You'll always be a pirate!

-Joel

[Cody]

Gosh. Everytime I read these messeges, it makes me cry...




I miss and love you all, Pirates.

[highcaliber]

CODY!!! *Pats on the back* Come back and heal me =x

[Darkning]

It's cool man, there's always a brighter future over the horizon. But you can't start moping around thinking that will never come. You have to keep your eyes set on it and keep heading towards it!

You're an awesome guy, and don't think that you've let us down by quitting. What would let us down though is you being depressed and not trying to get yourself out of a slump that you seem to have gotten in.

We're your friends, and we will be here for you. And of course if we can't meet that, Jesus is still around.

[Cody]

Thanks, Josh. <3


But, lololol.


-athiest-

[berry]

I presume it's the same Cody I played with, HealerCody was in the Guild back when I still played, aye? That's some serious stuff there, I think quiting MS and blaming yourself for not being able to lead a Pirates section on a different server is the least important out of all of it.

Yes, you will be missed and yes most people would probably rather have you stay because they like you and enjoy talking to you/being with you. But like Josh said, it's better to work things out for yourself first before anything else.

There is strength in friends and in faith if that is your kind of thing, but there is also strength in yourself. You made a step to what you feel is a better direction at this time, I can do naught but support it whole-heartedly. Though it is for different reasons I too decided to stop doing certain things (Maple included) for an extensive period of time.

It is something we can not help directly with, but we can tell you that we understand your decision, support it, wish you the best and are here for you if you do feel that it is our help you need or want. Pirates will always be there to give out free hugs or let you borrow a shoulder when it is needed.

Know this, and know that things will get better, trust me on that one, I know.